Who I am

Many things identify who I am but some things that truly identify me are missed because of the things that pop out. I am a smart student,I am a shy student,  I am a gay person, and they only notice the color of my hair but that's what most people usually see in me. They rarely notice how if you break me out of my shell I can become a really good and kind friend, they don't notice my sense of humor, or how I can be a good listener since I'm still shy around friends. But I also have some insecurities, I don't think highly of myself, I feel that people judge me, I feel that some people are my friend so they can have a gay friend not because they like my personality, and I also feel that no one likes me because I can get annoying and that people just don't want to be my friend. But I also can give really good advice because I may be young but I have gone through a lot. I am a growing teenager who still has a lot ahead of them and my experiences will help me handle many things.

The Emu

 My best friend she knew everything about me. She and I told each other everything. Us becoming friends changed me so much. I used to be shy and really antisocial with not many friends. But she gave me confidence to talk to new people, she helped raise my self esteem. She knew me better than I knew me. We were both inseparable.

 But I was told, that she was moving away. She told me she didn't have that many months living in Berwyn. She and I we're the unstoppable best friends, but thinking of losing my other half hurt me so much, she and I went through so much from when we met to when she moved. The thing that hurt the most was thinking of not being able to see her everyday. 

 With this being my last school year with her we made a promise to keep each other updated on school and just life in general. I didn't know how much time I had left so I had to make them count for the both of us. We told each other that we would still be each other's best friend no matter what happens. 

 The weeks after she left I was lost, I felt out of place, and thought I had no one. Gianna and I would lean on each other at lunch and I would put my head on her shoulder. But I had no one to do that with now that she left. Without her I fell to pieces and didn't know how to rebuild myself. I thought people didn't want to talk to me but I just didn't want to talk to them. 

 But the friends I didn't shut out helped me rebuild myself. They were my light in the dark. They helped me find the me I lost but I still wasn't the same as how I was before. But this time I didn't rely on just one person, I relied on two, Mina and Jade. These two helped me get over being really depressed. They were my light in the dark.

Seattle

  In ten years I see myself living Seattle. Seattle has a lot of rain and is cold, so I'd like to live there. I don't know what I would be working for but I know I would be starting medical school. I want to go to med school so I can become a surgeon. In med school I would try to be the best in my class so I can get matched into a really good hospital to do my residency. I'd probably be living in a brick house or apartment Jade and a few friends. I also never want to have kids because they're very loud and they would need a lot of taking care of which would take up a lot of time,which I wouldn't have since I would be in med school. Since I would be living with a few friends I would probably get a cat or dog, since we could all help take care of it. All in all that is where I see myself in ten years.